princessinpink

12:43 am
October 26, 2008

I'm so major pissed right now. One may say it's so mababaw, but for me, it's a big thing. Eurgh. We've been planning a trip to Batangas this sembreak for like, forever. We were supposed to visit Batangas last summer, but plans got postponed to sembreak. I'm really ecstatic to go, and it seemed like everyone else were, too. Two weeks ago, I disseminated messages regarding our trip. We planned to meet up a week before the real thing to set up important dates, so as everyone could go. And para isabay na din ang naudlot na movie date. But crap. Super killjoy nila, na it came to a point na I didn't want to push through with the trip na. We were supposed to meet up at Trinoma last Saturday, and we did. Well, 4 of us did anyway. Kainis. 15 kami sa barkada, at 4 lang ang pumunta.

Another thing that infuriates me thoroughly is the LAME excuses they give for missing out on such events. I mean, I get it. It really is weird to be in one place with your ex, but don't forget the word FRIENDS. We're all in the same barkada, so do us a favor, and drop the drama. Yun yung nakakainis e, ang daming palusot na hindi naman tama. I mean, if you don't want to go, and then say it straight. Hindi yung tipong, "Yeah, i'll try," or "My mom didn't allow me," and such other crappy excuses.

15 kami sa barkada. At 5 lang ang pupunta ng Batangas. TAKTE. One of my friends said na we better not push through since we're just few, but I was one of the others who wanted to push through no matter what. Miracles happen, I said. But looking at the damn situation right now, I don't want to do anything with them again. Everything seems really redundant. They'll say they miss hanging out with the barkada, and they'll ask for a gimmick. Here come the gimmick plans, suddenly everyone has other plans. Ergo, you're left alone. It's becoming a cycle already, and it's effin' crap. I guess I just have to get used to it, being let down by your own friends.

Currently watching: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
Currently feeling: annoyed

princessinpink

Hindi ako nag boyfriend para saktan mo lang, at sigaw-sigawan. Ok? Nagagalit lang ako kapag alam kong hindi na tama. At oo, pinaghintay mo ako at hindi tama yun. Pinaghintay mo ko sa parking lot ng Ateneo mag-isa nasa kotse na gutom na gutom. Sinabi ko na sayo na hindi pa ko kumakain, at tama bang pag hintayin mo ko?! Tapos ikaw pa tong magagalit na hindi ako umiimik dahil galit ako sayo. E gago ka pala e. Sasaktan-saktan mo ko tapos sasabihin mong mali ang ginawa mo. ULOL!

Currently feeling: angry

princessinpink

Hindi ako nag boyfriend para saktan mo lang, at sigaw-sigawan. Ok? Nagagalit lang ako kapag alam kong hindi na tama. At oo, pinaghintay mo ako at hindi tama yun. Pinaghintay mo ko sa parking lot ng Ateneo mag-isa nasa kotse na gutom na gutom. Sinabi ko na sayo na hindi pa ko kumakain, at tama bang pag hintayin mo ko?! Tapos ikaw pa tong magagalit na hindi ako umiimik dahil galit ako sayo. E gago ka pala e. Sasaktan-saktan mo ko tapos sasabihin mong mali ang ginawa mo. ULOL!

Currently feeling: angry

princessinpink

While walking home the other night, fresh from my Bio70 and Physics3 exams, I spotted a middle-aged woman in the dark. At first, I thought she was just doing a late-night gardening thing. But while I was nearing her, I found out that she was scavenging for things in someone else’s trash. This wasn’t the first time I saw something like that here in LB, but I don't think it'll be the last either.

A family lives in the compound just next to ours. And since our apartment is nearest to their house, I would always hear a lot of sounds from them: screams of a child about to be spanked, a yaya singing at the top of her lungs, women who would do chika outside the house every single afternoon, a program their watching on TV, and at times, a dad scolding people. Just last week, my cousins and I had lunch out. When we got back, I saw a really thin man, quite shabby actually, standing outside our compound. He looked so frail, so tired, and pity overcame me. Days before, I encountered the same man, running towards a car, and a man from the car was shouting instructions at him. The man, (let's call him Kuya), didn't say anything but ran back towards the house. I presumed that Kuyawas mute, and somehow deaf. Afternoon of the following day, I had another encounter with Kuya. I was near our compound already when I spotted him buying food from the store nearby. And I observed him quite intently. He was really shabby, and you could mistake that houseboy as a taong-grasa. He sat under the shade just across our compound, and I saw him hungrily gobbling up his food which consisted of softdrinks and hopia as I later have found out. And again, pity got the best of me. I wanted to talk to Kuya badly. I wanted to help him in anyway possible. But I don't know how.

These encounters with the scavengers and Kuya got me thinking. I always thought that people like them don't exist in places like LB. I thought that impoverished people leave places like these and trade it to a life in the urban areas, but still in poverty. It’s actually funny because I usually write things like these on reflection papers to be submitted in school. I never thought that I’d be blogging an experience like this, and actually do make a lot of reflecting. I don’t have any idea how to help people like them. I’m just a simple UP student, incapable of reaching out to people in power and telling them to help people like these scavengers and Kuya. I am even incapable of helping myself, so how would I be of help to people like them? It reminded me of my Alay Kapwa teacher, Ms. Ajero, who would do all the thinking of how to help needy people. But now is a different thing. There is no school that would protect me if things go wrong. I’m on my own, and everything is up to me.

This is such a long blog. But it really did get me to think real hard. What can I do, as a student, to be of help to these people? But one thing is for sure, I’ll be praying for them.

Well, on a lighter note, I'm finally home. Just arrived last night from LB. Wow. I never thought I'd get through this week. HAHA. 10 exams in one week? Wooooh. Oh well. Thank You God for this wonderful week. And, see you LB on Thursday!

Currently listening to: I Turn To You
Currently feeling: hyper

princessinpink

you're crap. if you really are sincere, then you could have explained. EXPLAINED. GAGO KA PALA EH. would it kill you to explain?! and in the very first place, would it kill you to send a f****** message na you're not going home?! GAGO!